February 16, 2012

but not here. I spent it all writing paper proposals and essays and taking notes because it's nearly reading week which means I am buckling down hardcoreto push through two more days of school/work before an extra-long weekend and week away from classes which I am seriously in need of, you guys, because yr girl is tired but there's life to be lived so I'm living it.

last week I served a bunch of wine to the seniors at my work for the V-Day dinner and my boss said that they've never sold that much wine at an event before which made me feel pretty good. basically I sat at the tables and harassed everyone who walked by in the way to dinner to come and buy a bottle for their table which most of them did and some even bought two and got all pink in the face and it was really cute.



it's weird working with old people, it puts their age and my youth into perspective and it's a pretty solid reminder that one day my hair will turn white and my joints will ache and my boobs will sag (no they won't) and I'll be talking about "kids these days" not in the ironic way I do not but in the really disdainful old-person way that my grandma does. I don't want to be a disdainful old person.

that's a fear of mine, actually, getting old & getting bitter. everyone does it and I don't think that because you're having a rough time that means you get to take it out on the world, it's like when you're young and bad shit happens and you're like "it's not because I'm a tit that this happened, it's because the world is unfair" and that attitude just gets carried through into your elderly years and you're some teenager with wrinkles and loose skin and your mentality never changed. I know some people like that but I won't say who.

I think your attitude determines a lot in life. yesterday was Valentine's Day and what annoys me most about VDay isn't couples who go all-out or people who stay in, it's the ones who are all 'Valentine's Day is stupid, blah blah blah' because you know what you sound like a lonely, sad, whiny person who is just raining on everyone else's parade. I get that it sucks to be single on Valentine's Day but I was single for three solid years (waah waah right) and even though yeah it stung a bit to not have some guy doting on me while surrounded by couples I didn't wallow in it or shit all over other people for enjoying it because it's selfish to do that.

it's kind of like people who hate on Apple products who have to make a concerted effort to go out of their way to badmouth people who like them. listen, I dislike your "six flagship phones a year" garbage phone as much as they hate my iPhone but I don't constantly go around badmouthing Samsung (or whoever) because frankly I like my phone and Apple and that's really all that matters. it seems to me that when people have to go around putting down other people's preferences in a serious (non-joking, casual) way it just shows insecurity on their part. just get over yourself.

or if you can't pull your head out of your own rectal cavity do what most of us do and get a blog where you can spew your bovine stercas into the wee hours of the morning when you suddenly get a caffeine rush from the cups of coffee you drank while trying to stay awake memorizing the usages of universal topics and clarification devices.

either one works.