- by Alyson Shane
sitting on the couch
cats snoozing on either side of me
gold sun streaming in through the tall, old window
filling the room with a warm glow.
I feel warm
deep breaths in and out
savouring this feeling of
a feeling that sometimes stays away for a long time
but tends to find me again during quiet weekday afternoons like this one.
Afternoons filled with piano, or jazz, or sometimes just silence
silence that used to be deafening
(as a kid I was afraid of silence when I was the only one upstairs in our house
and was afraid as an adult because of the unsettling thoughts that lurked there)
silence that these days offers space for reflection and calm.
I just want to hold onto moments like this one
stretching my fingers and toes and my neck and shoulders
smelling the incense and the fresh cool air from outside
trying to be as present in my own body as possible
because I know these moments are fleeting
moment of calm, moments of happiness
so I'm writing about it here in some feeble attempt to capture it
that isn't anxiety, or worry
or a million other dumb things I obsess and stress over day-to-day
and hang onto this.
Because it's such a nice change.
- by admin
I haven't felt this relaxed in weeks.
Not even that time I went for that massage a few weeks ago. I was all nervous and anxious and didn't enjoy it at all.
I think I walked out of there more stressed out than when I walked in.
Isn't what what massages are supposed to fix? Honestly.
Turns out what I need to unwind are these 10 steps:
1. Sleep my ass in
2. Make a healthy & tasty brunch
3. Hit the gym & run like a mofo
4. Do deadlifts & squats like a boss
5. Come home n clean the apartment
6. Run a bath
7. Sit in the bath and read TIME Magazine
8. Use up my Tiber River goodies from MBlog
9. Drink chamomile tea with honey
10. Hug my cats & Tyrone
Perfect. I feel ready to take on anything.
If I could just melt into the floor into a puddle of bliss, I would.
But I can't.
So I blog instead.
- by admin
with my arm wrapped around Tyrone
(mostly for warmth but also for love)
in my little apartment with the leaves turning red outside the window.
Ford was in the window but wouldn't come post for the picture so that's okay.
You know he was around
being difficult in his kitty way.
Yesterday we had brunch with Ty's family
at his sister's super cute new place
and I realized how much they've all come to mean to me
as we drove home down the highway and I looked out at all the
red and yellow fields and the big blue prairie sky.
(Also living in the prairies. I love it here)
Almost every day I'm reminded somehow of how lucky I am to have the friends that I do
(honestly, I really know the best people
who are hilarious, smart, creative, outrageous, and largely inappropriate)
but on Friday night we played Catan with two of the people I've known the longest
since I was
13, 14? Something like that.
Which reminded me of how much my friends mean to me
and how far some of us have come together.
Tonight I'll call up my Mum
tell 'er I love'r
talk to my dad who will undoubtedly tell me some crazy story
and keep me on the phone for way too long.
I love them despite their craziness
but it doesn't need to be Thanksgiving for that to be obvious.
who I'm thankful for every god damn day
for more reasons than I can and should list here
like hugs, inside jokes, long drives, morning runs, his beard and moustache
always having fun even when doing the most boring, mundane stuff
but especially the eggs benedict that he just made for me.
happy Thanksgiving kids, be thankful for what ya got!
I sure as hell am.
- by adminI met Chris Komus once upon a time at a bar called Sonar which is now a gay bar I think.
It was a regular haunt for the people I now consider to be my dear friends and I was just getting to know everyone at the time, so it's all kind of a blur of beers, dancing, loud music and new people. Somewhere in there I met Komus, though we didn't really start hanging until I started dating Tyrone because they have the weirdest bromance ever.
However in the few short years I've known him I've managed to accumulate a ton of amazing memories such as:
- when we all went to Montreal for MUTEK
- running into a freezing lake in the middle of the night completely wasted
- way too many potlucks
- robot costumes
- gross Santa Suits
- educating the people of Connect about narwhals over the speaker system
- the pedobear costume
- and the epic Komus Party Halo:
Last year I had the privilege of driving out to Motion Notion in BC with him, Morley and Tyrone, and have so many ridiculous stories involving cars, ponchos, and air conditioning, plus getting lost in the mountains, Fatty Arbuckle's, wearing too many tshirts, awful lime beer, broken Styrofoam coolers, and a failed attempt to walk to the bathroom in the dark in the pouring rain where Komus proceeded to get lost and I had to run around with a sad, flickering flashlight, soaked to the bone, screaming
into the pitch black BC forest trying to find him.
Some of my best memories have been made while I've been in the company of this ridiculous man, and even though he's never on time and he and Tyrone totally get out of hand sometimes, I hope he never, ever changes.
HBD mang, thanks for being my summer bestie.
- by admin
The new lady in my life.
She's the replacement to my other bike, the love of my life, Vikki, who was the other half to Vance, Tyrone's bike. They matched and were his & hers and it was wonderful until I got hit by some woman in an SUV who pulled out of a back lane looking at traffic going the other way (she wanted to cross the street and turn) at the end of last summer.
It was horrible and I was heartbroken. I missed my bike.
Luckily yesterday I was able to snag my new girl for a paltry sum of $30 (!!!) which is cheap, cheap, cheap, kids.
I took her out for a nice, solid 16km ride this evening and I'm happy to report she rides like a dream.
It's going to be such a good summer, it's making me a bit emotional to think about.
- by admintried Modern Taco for the first time
drank beers on a Friday afternoon
listened to the Great Gatsby soundtrack on repeat
danced in spring rain
got my first cheque from Vine
worked out at least once every day
had a wine buzz
bought a badass mink coat for $50
landed a new job
Every minute of err'y damn day.
Good things do happen.
- by admin
I don't think I've had so many "omg why do I live here?!" moments as I have over the past few weeks when our weather has been bouncing back and forth from almost-spring to nope still winter.
But I still love this town.
Tonight we're going to wash the car for the first time (!!!), make amazing home-made pizza with fig jam, arugula and goat cheese on it, and do some low-key hang outs with friends.
I'm unbelievably stoked about it, so here's my favourite springtime-related (kinda) song from one of my favourite musicals.
- by adminbut who cares? I'm young and in love and I'm happy. I'm scoring A's on papers and writing midterms so hard I feel dizzy at the end of 'em. I have great friends, a boyfriend who treats me like gold, and a life jam-packed with awesome.
tomorrow I start teaching seniors to use The Internet. that's all I'll say about my job from here on out (I'm working with people, y'know how it is) but I'm excited and scared and I think it's going to be such a great learning experience that I can't wait to sit down with my first savvy student and begin sharing my knowledge.
Winnipeg Zombie Walk & Half Pints birthday party this weekend. oh my.
life is good :)