I think Tyrone is mad at me

January 17, 2013 - 11:03pm - by admin

why else would he have not told me that the men without hats have apparently gotten back together and released a track?!

I would have never guessed the band that are responsible for the safety dance would come up with something like this

it sounds like a mash-up of music from every video game I've ever played and the 80's

and god damn, despite my better judgement

I kinda love it.

(on a side note

tyrone, are we having a fight I don't know about?)

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tragic kingdom

January 16, 2013 - 4:44pm - by admin

when I was kid I lived on this really weird street. it sort of acted like the connecting street to two major streets, main and mcphillips, and on either side of the street there were these huge fields that have since been developed into neighbourhoods with ugly stucco houses but when I was a kid there were fields.

we also had ditches in front of our houses and one side had these shallow ditches, which was the side that I lived on in our old side-by-side house with the green chain link fence out front and on the other side there were really deep ditches with wooden bridges that crossed them and were way cooler.



I was always kind of jealous that our side-by-side house wasn't on the side with the deep bridges that were good for catching tadpoles in, instead of our shallow ditches that just got your feet wet when you forgot to check in the long grass to see if there was a puddle or not before stepping.

my friend trista who lived in one of the side-by-sides across the street with the big ditch and in the summer when we weren't catching tadpoles with home-made nets that we would dangle from the bridge we would sit on her concrete front step and listen to the boombox.

she was a few years older than me and I totally looked up to her.

she had way better taste in music and always got cool cds and had way more nintendo 64 games.

she also showed me how to use a ouija board and to draw and play You Don't Know Jack on her brother's pc.

one of the summers in the late 90's when I was probably 9 or 10 and she was probably 12 or so we would sit on her concrete steps on in the cool grass and bake in the summer sun and listen to tragic kingdom on her boombox.

most of the music I heard was junky old stuff on my parents radio and tragic kingdom is the first album I remember hearing and thinking

omg this is really good

gwen stefani made no sense to me. she had weird-colored hair and wore strange clothes and her words tapped into this weird part of me that I didn't know was there. she confused me and I liked it and I must have driven trista nuts getting her to replay the album over and over.

this was around the time when all my friends were super into boy bands and I'd go to school and squeeeeeee over posters ripped out of Tiger Beat magazine of boys with their center-part haircuts but then I'd go over to tristas and listen to tragic kingdom and nevermind and clumsy and all these albums my other friends weren't listening to.

soon my family moved into a different neighbourhood without a field and ditches and more ugly stucco houses so I stopped going over there and summers with new music and boomboxes on the concrete step were over.

even though my friends in the new neighbourhood listened to cds on boom boxes and lay in the sun in our big backyards it wasn't the same. we listened to cheesy pop music and mainstream garbage and I didn't listen to that other type of music as often.

but sometimes at home I'd tune into muchmusic and watch the wedge and listen to the 'weird' music my friends weren't into.

because nobody listened to tragic kingdom.

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okay so we didn't watch solaris

January 16, 2013 - 5:00am - by admin

it's my fault, as are most things. I admit.

I'm working on this huge project of sorts which is sucking up a lot of time now that I'm back in school and tomorrow I'm having a pre-interview coffee with one of the former mayors of the city which I'm a bit freaked out about, honestly.

I'm sure she's super nice and she'll be charming and hilarious and I'll be this weird nervous wreck all hopped-up on coffee because we're meeting at Starbucks and their coffee makes me sick to my stomach, a little bit.

doing work for this project has been eating up a lot of my time but it's going way better than expected and I think my prof is impressed with it, which is always a bonus.

still doesn't make me less nervous to start interviewing people, though.

so basically I put off watching solaris because we needed to clean the apartment, you guys, and I needed to make sure I had all my shit together for these interviews I have coming up for this project. by the time I was done it was like 10:30pm and tyrone was all

we can't watch solaris. we'll fall asleep and jason will yell at us on the internet more for falling asleep during solaris again.

which is probably true.

so we hung out in bed and tyrone fell asleep and I read more of ham on rye which is just, wow, so messed up.

weird thing is that I've been having amazing dreams after reading bukowski. not fucked-up weird things, but these ridiculous adventure dreams where I wake up fully refreshed and ready to take on the world because I just finished kicking ass in my dream.

you know what I mean.

usually in the mornings I tell tyrone what I've been dreaming about because he never remembers his dreams and I feel bad for him. sleeping is one of my favourite things to do, mostly because I have really intense dreams and I feel like he's missing out by not remembering them.

the problem with dreams is that they never make sense. like, ever. so he kinda rolls his eyes or makes a weird face and then leaves the room without saying anything.

I've thought about keeping a dream diary and maybe making a book out of the amalgamation of my stupid dreams and becoming a bazillionaire off the profits. I mean is twilight and 50 shades of grey can be bestsellers why can't my piece of crap novel?

but then I wouldn't have time to blog here because I'd be doing pressers and tours and stuff, so fuck that shit I guess.

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sometimes things are best said

January 16, 2013 - 2:58am - by admin

in every single language

converted back to english.

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tyrone and I are going to watch solaris tonight

January 14, 2013 - 8:57pm - by admin

which is dumb because this is the third time we've attempted to watch it but we keep getting tired. not because it's a bad movie -it's really good and pretty unsettling- but because we always try to watch it at the wrong time.

the first time was a while back. we'd decided to stay in and have a sexytime saturday night in. we made chicken stuffed somethingorother and pasta from de luca's and wine oh yes, wine.

and we made a picnic on the floor in the living room with pillows and lit only candles and it was really romantic and we had a good time eating dinner.

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Hip Hop Sunday #60 Cadence Weapon - 88 (Grimes Prod.)

January 13, 2013 - 7:00pm - by admin

slept on the couch last night not because we had a fight but because the bedroom was too cold

and tyrone was snoring and farting and I was all eff this noise and lay down with the laptop in the living room with some TNG on the tv

problem with late-night internet cruisin'

is you always wind up in the weirdest places

somehow

I don't even want to talk about the things I saw

and the things people make into gifs (why?!)

so instead I'll just say

happy hip hop sunday.

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today's confessions

January 11, 2013 - 11:19pm - by admin

"

stole change from the laundry dish for two bus trips (bad)

thought mean things about the girl who carded me at the LC cause I'm stupid and forgot my ID (bitch)

thought mean things about myself because I forgot my ID (idiot)

read some blogs but didn't comment (sorry)

talked about masturbating in front of an old person (awkward)

masturbated (twice)

talked about masturbating on the internet (once)

didn't email my mom back (oops)

spent too much time reading reddit (normal)

spent too much money on grapes ($5!!)

spent too much money on alcohol ($30)

complained too much about the weather (it's winter)

didn't commit to making plans with friends (@cenquist and @adriantrimble)

wrote a shitty blog post (it happens).

tomorrow's another day.

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This is the first thing that I saw on the Internet this morning

January 11, 2013 - 3:26pm - by admin

(via Reddit, o'course)
"My whole family is wondering why this binder with two squids inside was left on my my porch" 

I think it means it's going to be a good day

blizzard be damned!

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there's a spot on campus where I like to sit

January 10, 2013 - 11:11pm - by admin

I come and sit here whenever I can. it's a four-person table but it's always just me and like most of the tables in this little seating area in Lockhart Hall the chairs are attached to the tables by metal poles and swival a bit.

like being in an academic mcdonalds.

I like sitting here because I can watch everything. to my right is a window

(and I always sit with the window to the right and my back to the wall. I don't like when people walk behind me)



the window overlooks boring stuff. a surface parking lot and the Booth College across from that and some sidewalks but because it's sidewalks around the school there are always interesting people walking by or driving by in cars that look like different kinds of dinosaur heads.

if I don't look out the window I eavesdrop and watch other students while pretending to write on my blog (like now).

I like listening to other people but my earphones are in playing a quiet BNL song so I'm sort of in my own world but not really. this way only the people worth paying attention to, the loud or obnoxious or angry ones actually catch my attention.

for example two girls at the next table over were having a discussion about horoscopes which meant the volume went up. another friend showed up and started talking about how her mom thought she was an alcoholic because she brought a bottle of vodka in her purse to class.

headphone volume down.

I spend a lot of time here studying and writing and listening and watching people. in three years I've sat here more times than I can count and it never stops being interesting.

what it's taught me is that people are infinitely complex with really dramatic problems that usually have simple solutions.

that there are some really well-dressed people who walk by my school.

that more students have imacs than anything else.

that boiled eggs are not okay to eat in a public place (smelly).

that lots of people are unhappy in their relationships and would rather complain to their friends than to their partners.

that we all drink too much coffee.

and that an unbelievable amount of women have the exact same voice. wtf.

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one of the residents at my work received a plaque

January 9, 2013 - 8:30pm - by admin

it commemorates his years serving in the RAF during WWII.

he signed up when he was 18, in 1939.

he flew four different planes in four different battles

and survived being shot down by the enemy four times

and says that he won't talk about killing anybody

in a way that lets you know that he did.

he's lived in canada for a long time and has also served in the RCAF

he gets lots of visitors who he's instructed and helped over the years

they pick him up, take him to appointments, get his groceries

and every one of them has a story about how he helped them

at least once or twice.

it's really nice to see someone surrounded by so much love in their old age

if only we could all be so lucky.

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